lmao don't mind that picture it's hard to find an imogen heap fan who can jsut post a dang video without some hippie renaissance faire decoration thing quick post since this song feels soooo Suzu right now, lyrics+explanation You know where to find me When you're on your way out All bustle and busy, Enough is enough Because life's sweet assemblages Are quick to driftwood away Be still with me You know where to find me For no particular reason To stop traffic behavior, Or to get something off your chest 'Cause we go a long way back Back to nothing at all mmm, be still with me Oh oh oh won't you be Be still with me You know where to find me If you think it's all over I can sense it a mile off, It's no friendly hello You could be screaming drunk Well I've got my bad days too I'm gonna be here for you Be still with me In a public place, private thoughts A reminder of a precious loss I can be a source of constant reassurance Let the breeze block sadness drop Oh oh oh won't you be Be still with me Woah woah woah Woah woah woah (Be still) Heart, lung, soul, Arteries and all A shoulder at the ready, vital organs on call (Be still) Heart, lung, soul, Arteries and all A shoulder at the ready Don't mistake my charity For what it is A deep need to be needed, Necessary Don't mistake my open arms For what they are They can turn on you So show me the money, Show me the money Blue and green, Fresh eyes on me I'm young again All things to mend with Bite-size life boats I'll fix your smashed up head Be still with me, If you want To be alone (Be still) If you'd rather die then tell You'll know where I'll be (Be still) Where to find me For hard talk To call it off or bring it on A proposal, If you're broken, I'll be here, I'll be here For secret... For a breather... If there's nothing you can do... it's about being there for someone, but I love how moodswingy it feels, that fits suzu. it begins with confidence and gentleness telling that he'll be there to support you, confident that he can help. but then we get to:
Heart, lung, soul Arteries and all A shoulder at the ready, vital organs on call it slowly becomes a little more desperate as he promises his whole self to the purpose of supporting you. and then the MOST suzu feeling part and what sold me on this song in the first place: Don't mistake my charity For what it is A deep need to be needed; Necessary Don't mistake my open arms For what they are They can turn on you So show me the money Show me the money the skin is peeled back to show this impure motive that sleeps beneath the rest of what he's done in the song so far. I love that the song addresses this part of Supportiveness: how it bounces back on the supporter, how supportiveness isn't a harmless one way street. Suzu is very self centered under it all, & if he can't actually help you it hurts him so much that he might even turn on you. however the song recovers from this dark swing and continues: Blue and green, Fresh eyes on me I'm young again All things to mend with Bite-size life boats I'll fix your smashed up head feeling better after that outbrst maybe? remembering why he wants to help you anyway? many people do have selfish intentions when they approach helping others. it's hard not to be self centered deep down, and it doesn't actually have to cheapen the value of your support. also because daichi=green I zero in on this verse as a glimpse of suzu reacting to daichi, and while the rest of the song feels like an internal dialogue of suzu's projected outward, this is a tiny peek of daichi's influence coming in & suzu reacting. possibly feeling calmed & reassured that his support is actually helping him. though suzu is the one purporting to be the sole support, daichi's mere presence is for the most part a stabilizing element in suzu's own life too. the rest of the song continues quietly & small, & fades out repeating much of the same sentiment as the beginning of the song. the tone of voice feels so small and worried and shy to me it reminds me how suzu eventually shrinks away from daichi out of his desire to help him becoming misguided. He promises to be there for him but increases distance, almost unconsciously, because he thinks THAT's what daichi needs as well. also the whole notion of "you know where to find me"; as if the help is not proactive, but passive, he waits for you to need him. And if you never come to him again, he'd decide to just keep waiting and be ready.... which is pretty much exactly what happens lol Suzu's character development is basically that of a totally self-centered person who finds someone they genuinely want to support & how he tries to be able to do that. which is this song, so it's perfect, and I get feels like back in the day listening to imogen heap in highschool thank you goodnight
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